Journal 14: Anticipating Your Parents' Objections

Dear mom and dad

             I have made a tough decision which I want to go back home. I assume that once go back to the city where I grow up, and I can find a job to support myself. I know that you have spent a lot of money and expectation on me. My old sister already told me that you really anticipate I can finish my master degree then go back home. But mom and dad, I have to told you that I lost myself and I can’t my way to pass the TOEFL test so that I allow to get in the master program. Meanwhile, you have saved a lot of money for me to study, but I stuck in this test, it seems taking forever to pass the test, that’s why I came up with this Idea.

            I understood you will try to encourage me to keep going. You just concern about once I go back to my country, I can find a better job to support myself. But my enthusiasm is gone, everything is changed. I didn’t realize that this test is my biggest barrier that I have never confronted. I still want to pursue my master degree, however, if I still hurdle by this test that means it will spent more money for my pursue; and I don’t want you work so hard to support me to finish my education, that’s I really worry about. And I know you are getting old, you physical condition not as well as before. Thus, I hope you are understood why I made this decision.

   

Journal 10: Advice

        

“If things happen don’t try to avoid it, and you should try to deal with it, be a tough guy.” The advice I saw it recently inspirited me a lot. My parent always told me that as a guy you should encourage yourself and don’t be afraid to take adventure. Every time I face a challenge, I always unconsciously under estimate myself and try to find excuse to escape it. This issue has been bothered me for a long time, even my uncle recognized that I’m just unconfident. Fortunately, the advice I saw and I always take it as an inspiration; sometimes when I afraid cannot handle a situation or a little bit nervous about it and I use that advice convinces myself to take the task. However, sometimes the task I taken maybe imperfect, but a least I urge myself to finish and face it. And I believe if I insist to doing it , my confident will rise to a new height.